Look,

to be honest, with everyone -
i am not posi 24/7. in fact i'm usually pretty depressed and cover it up with a big smile and hugs. in this sense i feel like i am like most people except for i'm just smiling all the time. i don't hang out often because i feel uncomfortable around most people and it's easiest for me to get to know people on a one-on-one basis. i trust almost no one and i believe that almost everyone is lying to me or has at some point. this means in no way that i'm not happy. i'm actually very happy. i also make no sense. if i don't like someone i want them dead, and i don't care if they have someone who will be upset about it. this is the most selfish part of my being, i guess. luckily i don't dislike much more than 2 or 3 people, but honestly, i feel like the world would be better without them, and not just mine. i have no idea where this is going.

basically,
i love you all.

The splinter is gone but i can still feel it's sting.

I really hate that I've become so used to hating people, especially when it's people I barely know.

Stop being so shitty, you fucks.